Grief and Sorrow

Friday, November 17, 2006
Why?

Why?

How come all these feelings of sadness come flowing my whole mind again? Is it due to the comics I read which triggers all these feelings?

Haiz.. It has been some time since i walk alone aimlessly in a chopping mall. No destination. Dunno from where I walk, to where I am heading to..

Sadness.. As much as I thought I had buried it deep inside somewhere secluded in my heart, it seems to reappear right in front of me.

Is it cos of her change of her current status from complicated to single? I dunno.. I really dunno. Haiz..

Browsing thru her testimonials, saw someone who's been trying to date her.. Is that undescribable feeling I am experiencing now jealousy? Is this jealousy due to the fact that I still have feelings for her? Or is it that I am juz jealous of a past that I had missed when I am with her, a present that I am not by her side, and a future that I cant have with her?

Alas..

Oh Lord.. Pls.. What is that feeling? Why is it causing hurt to me once again? Hadnt I let it go? Hadnt I lost all my feelings for her? Why am i still experiencing hurt?

Lord.. Why dont I have anyone to confide to except you? Why cant you answer my doubts more verbally rather than making me guess my answer thru? Oh Lord.. I need answers.. I need ways to get me out of this situation.. It has been dragging too long.. Much too long..

posted by Ivan Ee @ 10:12 PM