Grief and Sorrow

Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Finished 1st paper yesterday..

Well.. Study from 3am onwards until the paper ends..

Went to bath at ard 6am in the morning.. Then go to school liao.. Cos was intending to study on my way there..

Actually can take MRT to school, but I feel like taking a bus so that I can study on the bus..

While on 74, I study.. Duh.. Haha.. (Duh = Obvious)

Then comes the terrible thing.. I think I Yun1 Che1, aka faint bus.. Dunno why leh.. Never had such a thing before.. I think is because the bus got no AirCon.. Then oso there was a short jam near MacRichie there.. Then the smoke there was terrible.. Arrr...

Anyway.. I managed to come to school intact.. Haha..

Almost lost my way to T18.. Went to T17 instead.. Luckily my animal instinct told me something wrong.. Wahahah.. Saw JunLing studying at the stairways there.. So I join her lor..

Then nearing the exam time, we make our way to the door, and saw most of the class ppl there liao le.. Almost everyone told the others who are studying not to study liao.. So fan.. Ppl want to study let them study lah.. Dun disturb them mah.. Whether what they study last minute can go into the mind is non of ur concern mah.. Why care?

Anyway.. Went into the exam hall.. At first, saw the paper.. A bit scared. Cos I am not very confident in this paper.. Cos oso I didnt revise the first 3 chapters at all.. Cos Tested before liao..

During the first 10 minutes.. Keep staring in front.. Perhaps to loosen myself up..

Once the paper starts.. I started doing.. Duh!

Well.. Did rather slowly at first.. By the end of 1 hr I still doing question my 3rd short answer question.. So I ditched my nice writing and traded for a hand writing that will cos the marker's myopia to increase by another 100 degrees.. :D

After finishing the paper.. Was rather relieve.. Cos I find the paper rather easy.. But then I saw quite a few ppl like frowning a lot.. Some say the paper very hard.. Strange.. Haha.. At least I know that I will have at least 5 out of 100 correct.. Cos the question is directly from the last tutorial.. Haha.. And I juz studied that on the bus.. Haha.. I saw Tim not frowning oso.. So I presume he will get at least an A for this paper liao..

Anyway.. I feel I will sure pass this paper.. Not trying to be proud thou'.. Juz have this sort of feeling.. Whatever grades I will get is another thing.. Passing is a more impt criteria as compared to grades isnt it? Without even passing, how on earth can anyone get an A or B, or even distinction?

Anyway, all I am aimming for is just a pass.. So why care? I dun believe in those words saying that "Aim for an A, and you will get at least a B; Aim for a Pass, and you will most probably fail".. Well, at least that mindset dun work for me..
I will always aim for a pass, and strive for the best.. Cos by exceeding your aim, you will be a happy person if you know u achieve it.. For ppl who aim for an A, if you get a B, you will be very sad and it might affect the subsequent papers that you are taking..
For me, I aim for a Pass, if I get a C, I will be happy that I dun nid to forward that module, if I get a B, I will be very happy, if I get an A, I will be on clouds nine!

Perhaps because happiness had ditched me for so long, thus I use such a reverse pychology theory to bring some back.. I feel that happiness is much more impt than anything else.. Happiness will be able to make someone reached his or her potential.. Cos when you are happy, you will be more willing to learn and do, thus helping you on the way to reaching you potential..

Thou' Love will help someone to exceeds his or her potential.. Haiz..

posted by Ivan Ee @ 11:32 AM